Category: depression

  • Columbine and Action

    Columbine and Action

    Did you see Sue Klebold on ABC’s 20/20 last Friday? I watched it twice.

  • Hypocrite

    Hypocrite

    I thought I could go off of my meds.  I thought I was stronger than depression.  But the black dog is back and he’s sitting on my chest, daring me to leave him off leash.  I tried. I thought the exercise would be enough.  But five weeks off my meds and his teeth are bared…

  • A Long December

    A Long December

    I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve posted.  Winter is long and cold here in Chicago, and frankly, I am, as much as I hate to admit it, I am prone to seasonal depression which makes me pretty much hide out, eat, binge watch Netflix, and shun bearing my soul to, well, anyone. But…

  • Guest Post: “Just” Cerebral Palsy? Depression, Dillemas, and Delights

    When I found Chrisa’s beautifully poignant corner of the Internet, I was immensely encouraged. You see, I have cerebral palsy, and though it’s a developmental condition, I was floored at the parallels between Tim’s challenges and my own. That is, until my sophomore year of college. There was a series of events that happened that…

  • Deja Vu All Over Again

    I swear I’ve had a post with this title before. Spent the day back at the psychiatric hospital with The Girl, again.  She’s not trying to become anorexic anymore. No, someone noticed her arm today when her sleeve was pulled up, and up and down her left arm are cuts.  She admitted to the school…

  • It’s Monday Again – NABPM / NaBloPoMo Day 14

    So…another week begins. We spent time Thursday and Friday last week talking as a family about what’s going on with The Girl* and talking to her about what an evaluation is.  We’d had a cocktail party scheduled for Saturday night for weeks and, while debating if we should cancel, we all decided not to.  She…

  • Order and Oblivion

    Photo by Rick&Brenda Beerhorst I sometimes joke that I can see the diagnose a mental illness in anyone. Obsessed with eliminating clutter? OCD.  Involved in 40 projects at once? ADHD. Use anger as a defense mechanism? Bipolar.  I’ve always tried to focus on the symptoms, but my need for order and organization pushes me towards a…

  • The Endless Loop of Revolution 9

    Spring Break is always a dicey time of year for our family for a number of reasons.  All three kids have Spring Break off of school a different week than Tom does at the school he coaches at, so Tom has to work while the kids are off.  The break always falls in March, Tim’s…

  • Guess I’ll Go Eat Worms

    Tim’s mad because I can’t come to his basketball game this weekend. Work is full of people who express their opinion in loud, annoying tones. There’s 18 inches of snow in my yard, with 2 more inches coming on Saturday. Gah.

  • Al

    Al

    I couldn’t bring myself to wear pantyhose today. I just got home from saying goodbye to a friend I’ve had for nearly 17 years. A friend I’ve shared a lot of good and bad news with, good and bad times with. A friend who was so unhappy and depressed that he thought his best option…